Ugh. I'm really sorry that you are feeling this way. I don't understand the technicalities (as I said, it is way over my head), but to me, it looks like you are trailblazing. That's definitely a hard place to be in. It looks like you are getting some respect and I'm happy to hear that OTW people aren't giving you a hard time.

I have a hard time understanding why people feel threatened when someone says, "hey, this isn't working for me. Can we find another way to do this that will include me?".

You are doing good work. I can understand if you are ready to bow out at this point.